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It Puts The Lotion On It’s Skin

For those of you who have seen the film ‘The Silence of the Lambs‘, this is exactly how I felt in my relationship with my (ex) husband. Of course, this was after I moved to the US. It was the craziest and most painful  time of my life, but I am very thankful I got out when I did – and with my son.

I hate to imagine my son continuing the Abuse Cycle had I have stayed with his father *Steve.

Now, he can “place the lotion in the basket” himself because I am free, despite him telling me “Good Luck” on getting away from him on many occasions.

I no longer have to pretend everything is going to be OK.

I no longer have to keep quiet about things which have happened.

I no longer have to hear bullshit about him pretending to suffer from PTSD, so he “doesn’t have to work for the rest of his life”, as well as other lies.

I no longer have to worry from one day to the next as to whether or not Max and I will have a roof over our heads.

I no longer have to sleep in a cold car in the parking lot of a twenty-four hour Walmart in the middle of winter, using the store’s restroom to freshen up.

I no longer have to wear pyjamas walking down the street, whilst he wears new clothes.

I no longer have to hear him tell me I have clothes to wear, which were his hand me down male clothes because he was getting bigger in size by the minute, due to all the junk food he eats.

I no longer have to worry about where my son’s next meal is coming from because his father is too busy filling his own gut, and buying cigars and cigarettes.

I no longer have to watch that ghastly asshole eat whole meals in front of me, whilst I am weak from hunger and abuse.

I no longer have to worry about my son and I freezing to death because we don’t have coats to keep us warm during the winter.

Last, but not least, I no longer have to worry about whether or not I will die at the hands of my (ex) husband, through suffocation with a pillow or strangulation, or be beaten to death with an object or with his bare hands – whilst my son is watching.

Instead, I will be able to watch my son grow into what will hopefully be, a fine young man.

Hi Grammy!

(I’ve blocked her real name).

Everyone, this is *Steve’s mother. Yes, the one I cut ties with, along with the rest of the family back in June, due to their back stabbing, hypocritical ways. She started following me on Google+ on September 1st ~ a little over two months after I stopped communicating with her, and blocked her and the others on Facebook and Twitter.

So this is a message to her, and I suggest this:

Go stalk *Britney who now calls you “Mom”, despite you wanting me to reunite with your crazy, wife beating, abusive son Steve at the same time you befriended her. (Click here for part two on some of the abuse I endured, which is one of the main reasons I left him). The same son who shouted at a ten week old baby (our son Max) because his upset stomach was making Steve unable to sleep. The same son, who doesn’t even support the two children he already has by two different women, yet he has third child due with a criminal. You and the rest family must be so proud!

And whilst you’re at it, calling her “Sweetie” and saying how she has a “Beautiful smile”, don’t forget to tell her that Steve has anger issues because of me ~ just like you told me that he has anger issues because of *Dawn, his daughter’s mother.

Rather than watching what I’m doing, perhaps you and Britney should sit down an have a wonderful conversation about her stint in jail for shop lifting whilst pregnant for another man (twenty-two and has two children by two fathers… her slackness fits in well with your own family), whilst you can tell her how you surfed the internet and found men to use for money – just like you apparently left Steve’s father in debt, not to mention you wiped out your current husband’s funds who is over twenty years older than you.

I guess this is where Steve get’s that part of his attitude from, thinking it’s better to date women older than him, so they will look after him financially and otherwise, whilst he does nothing. But it didn’t work for him though, because none of those women would put up with his shit – to include me. And that is one of the reasons he ended up with what his eldest sister *Anna calls “A Gap-Toothed Beast“.

Let me tell you a secret. Come closer to the screen so I don’t shout it out. I’m sure what with the façade the whole family puts on, you wouldn’t want this out in the open…

You’re ALL bat-shit crazy!

No Thanks!

(Pfft… Bitch, please. He ain’t no prize… You can HAVE him!).

Years ago, just before I started dating Mr. Narcissist (*Steve), I met a guy called Paul. (I’m using his real name because I just don’t give a damn any more!). Anyway, he had told me he had been divorced for two years. Fair enough. We went on a couple of dates. I didn’t ‘fancy’ him, but thought he was an OK guy to have as a friend.

After the second date, I received an unexpected call… from his wife! The douche bag was married with a child, and still living in the marital home.

I got cussed out by his wife asking me how do I feel about being the other woman, by which I told her I do not feel anything at all because I am not the other woman. I proceeded to explain to her that her husband was the one that approached me, and told me that he had been divorced for two years. Why the hell should I take the blame for someone else’s lies? I then had to listen to how they had had a wonderful wedding in Sri Lanka and that they had been together for fifteen years. The conversation ended with me telling her that there are too many men out there for me to be sharing a married man and fighting over him. I haven’t got time for that shit.

Paul then called me whilst I was at work (filming in a cemetery – I remember this as I was thinking if I ever got my hands on him he’d soon be six foot under!), and proceeded to tell me that if I wanted to be with him, he would leave his wife for me. Yep, he went there. I told him “Hell no!”

I guess my response didn’t go down too well, because the pair stalked me for over a year.

Last year, Paul got in touch with me to let me know that he and his wife had broken up for good. Why would I care?

And the funniest thing after such appalling behaviour? He still wanted me to give him a chance!

 

(Blue – Me. White – Paul).

It was worth the wait to laugh at him, but no thanks. I’m not desperate! Bloody delusional fool! 😀

It’s Been Going On For A Long Time

The whole family has serious issues – particularly mentally. This goes without saying.

*Steve’s biological mother was all over me like a rash, especially at the beginning of our relationship. I remember he and I argued something fierce because his mother was saying ill things about him to me, such as he has anger issues due to the way his daughter’s mother *Dawn treated him. Also, Steve did not want me to be friends with his mother because he hated her, and didn’t want me to be like her.

This message from *Anna proves that whatever crap was and is going on, has/had been way before I even came on the scene. (“Bear” is his nickname from childhood):

Anna, 06/01/2011, 20:15 – Hey dear, Bear called me…hope you don’t mind, he said you’re upset because of all this with Mom…which I totally understand. I will tell you the truth, the only thing she said about you was that she thinks you hate her now. And I’m so sorry that you’re being caught in the middle of all of this. It’s been going on for a long time, but it’s really escalating with Bear right now. I have only just recently patched things up with Mom, and trust me, we have all tried telling her she’s messed up, for years! My Dad tried so many times, and she was just in denial. Sometimes I think that big things have to happen to cause people to stop, look around, and really listen. But *Amber and I did write something up that Amber read to Mom, telling her she has got to stop with the crazy, and get some professional help. Anyway, I hope that all of this can be put aside, I don’t want Mom’s craziness to affect your relationship with my brother, me or Amber. Or even Dad… love ya Anna

Funny how it’s always someone else’s fault – namely Steve’s ex’s, as they now use me as a scapegoat and act like a united front…